The dog days of summer are upon us!I couldn’t help but notice today whilst suffocating in the hot, sultry sun.Yep, I’m back at work (today it was teleprompting in an arena at Clinton Anderson’s DownUnder ranch) after a long month of cool days up North.Cooler than I would have ordered but I don’t think I’m in charge of the world’s thermostat, in fact I feel less and less in charge of quite frankly: anything.Life is a funny thing, just when we think we have it figured out it throws us a curve ball.
I attended my husband’s friend and co-worker’s funeral this summer.It was a sudden death, very untimely, and unexpected.It was a sad affair.A curve ball indeed, one of those sneaky pitches that have you wondering after the strike.Why him?A soul with so much more to give.
My friend’s mother passed away.It was expected but how can you ever really prepare for emptiness, for the curve balls that you think will never come across the plate?
I attended a friend’s second wedding this summer.It was quite a fairytale affair!The wedding took place on the quaint island of Mackinac where cars are not allowed only bicycles and carriages.The princess had tried on the glass slipper before and thought it fit, yet to her dismay the glass shattered and left her barefoot and forlorn … HOWEVER her REAL prince charming arrived in stately fashion and swept her off her bare feet.What did she get out of the deal?New Jimmy Choo’s, and a great husband! Yep, my friend was at a full count when she hit a homerun!
So what did I learn this summer?In this game of life, sometimes there’s scoring runs and sometimes there’s strikes.But I think we would all agree that we want to step up to the plate.
Ahhh… it’s June and time for the summer cottage experience. Soon my family will pack half of what we own, gear up for a two-day drive and take off for northern Michigan and the Great Lakes. If you’ve never been you should go, if you’ve been you KNOW about the breathtaking sunsets, the icy water, the cold nights, Mackinac Island fudge, the northern lights, and the absolutely incredible summer days… but camping at Perch Lake has to be the best, it is so awe-inspiring – I penned a poem entitled:
Up North Stolen Moments In The North Woods
The still of the night comes near. The robber waits, his plan unknown... The moon provides an easy entrance.
Darkness in the North Country…
Water -- still like glass. Moon -- a glean of silver Nature’s curtain is drawn… all is still And silent… those who belong wait.
The early morning – at first the silence... Twinkling stars threaten, their brilliance will bring a call to the silent dawn. The stillness falls... and beckons as a welcome sign to the NORTH WOODS and all its inhabitants….
A whippoorwill’s cry; an a cappela choir; They greet the warmth of sun on still calm waters. The robber scampers down a tree hungrily in search of nearby loot. Waves rhythmically slap the shore
And, then... a faint announcement of morning comes close, dips, and lands as momma and ducklings enjoy the first moments of dawn.
The sun explodes as all nature expects… And a new day is born.
AHHH… The delicious delights of summer... here we come!
A scary thing happened to me yesterday!I had been grocery shopping, and when I headed to my car, I noticed my van door was open.At quick glance, I thought perhaps it wasn’t my van, and then when I saw the baseball dings from way too many baseball games… I knew I had the right van.My driver’s door and side door were flung open and a man was sitting in the driver’s seat.
Now here is where I must caution you… DO NOT approach your car, the car you think you have locked, and proceed to tell the perpetrator to “Get out of YOUR car!”I worked in television news and covered way too many horror stories… for way too many years NOT to know that this isn’t the brightest of ideas!He could have a gun, he could have a taser, he could just be big and mean… DO NOT approach – just call 9-1-1.Of course, that is NOT what I did.I pushed my little buggy right up to my car and said, “GET OUT OF MY CAR!” The guy seemed disoriented; he seemed confused and began to argue with me about the van being his.After several more loud orders for him to get out of my car, he stood up and began to back off.That is when I found the wine bottles in the front of my van… case in point… if you find a drunk, stoned or whatever person in YOUR CAR… call 9-1-1, but me… NO… I started handing him his wine that he left on my front seat and continued to yell for him to get away!He then asked if he could help me with my groceries… CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?I still wasn’t frightened (I don’t know why), and began to put my groceries in my van. NEXT WRONG MOVE???I turned away from him, and that is when he shoved me toward my seat and said, “GET IN!”
Okay, at that point… the point of the shove, I became scared and ran into the parking lot (remember it was broad daylight) screaming for someone to help me.As the perpetrator sauntered through the complex, a Good Samaritan kept an eye on where the perp was going, and I rushed into the grocery store for help.That was when 9-1-1 was called… REMEMBER, IF THIS EVER HAPPENS TO YOU… DO IT EARLIER… DON’T TAKE ANY CHANCES…The cops caught the guy but not before he robbed a restaurant nearby.The perpetrator I was told is an habitual criminal and has served time in prison.
MORAL OF THE STORY (besides my stupidity)… Be aware of your surroundings and don’t hesitate to call for help.I was very lucky, not even a bruise … but I’m pretty upset that the idiot trashed my car, helped himself to my granola bars and wasabi almonds… and what was I thinking handing him the wine… I should have kept it!
Mother’s Day has been extra special for me this year. I have been blessed to peek in on a fiercely protective mother give birth to three little ones, feed them, nurture them and protect them from harm’s way. She probably won’t get Mom-Of-The-Year, but she has incredible stamina, energy, and love… and I got to watch all of it transpire underneath the eves of my front porch.
Here’s to the Mom’s out there – truly inspiring, always caring, and full of nurturing love.
Friends are such a great thing!I love my friends. There’s the friend that would help me zip up my jeans in college… I know that sounds a bit absurd… but some may remember when the tighter the jeans the better – and I personally can attest that obviously some folks still wear them that way … and any who have worn tight, tight jeans know that the only way a girl can zip those darn things is to lie on the bed… take a deep breath and have a good friend help you zip them… that’s a friend.
And, there’s the friend that loaned me her shoes and Bobbi Brown makeup because the airlines sent my luggage elsewhere on a recent trip. How ‘bout the friend that offered big bucks to help me when I started a new business years ago.I didn’t take her up on it, but what a friend!
There’s the friend that listens to my complaints, my fears, my joys, and reads all of my writing and tells me how wonderful it is – you have to admit that’s a true friend.When I want honesty – I read it to my husband.
I have a friend who paints with me and we pretend that we’re good.I have a friend that gets silly with me and laughs with me.I have a friend that listens, critiques and brings me a jolt of reality when I need it.I have a friend that shares life’s ups and downs and she would do anything for me.What a friend!
Friends are such a blessing.They send me funny cards, words of inspiration and hugs… when I need them most.
One of my favorite friend reminders is my fridge.It’s full of Christmas photo cards and pictures of our friends and family.Do you have a fridge full of friends?Oh, to be so blessed…
Letting go is hard to do.My son turned 16 this week.He received his driver’s license and he drove himself to school.I almost cried.I didn’t, but I almost did:an era is over.And so it goes.
I turn to the cute, decorative ornaments hanging on my wall that once depicted my family:my husband with a camera, my son with a cowboy hat and six-shooter, my daughter in ice-skates, and me… in a car with the kids in the back seat.The car’s license plate reads, “Mom’s Taxi”.
Mom’s taxi has made its last run.The ornaments were purchased many years ago when our family was much smaller and more dependant on Mom’s ability to taxi, heal the boo-boos, feed the hungry and answer any questions that came out of a four-year-old’s mouth during our car ride.“Why can’t we see the wind?”“If Papaw dies, will I die when I go to sleep?”“How does Santa get down the chimney, and how do we know that we are safe if he’s in our house while we are asleep?”In addition, I would be remiss if I didn’t thank our 42nd President for this question, “Mom, what is oral sex?”There was a question influenced by a friend’s older siblings… “Didn’t the Nazi’s have sex with their children?”I was also asked the standard, “Where do babies come from?” And “How does the moon hang in the sky and not fall?”
Now both our children have their own wheels, my son isn’t a cowboy, my daughter has long since abandoned the skates, and for a brief moment, I feel as if I’ve lost my identity… I ask, “How do my tears remain in my eyes and not fall?”
Okay, this may sound crazy but I have determined since our whole economic world as we know it seems to be going to the dogs, and quickly I may add... I need to concentrate on a few of my favorite things.
One of my favorite things is ice cream; however, as I grew older I discovered there was a reason that ice cream didn't like me: I'm lactose intolerant. I've since discovered some absolutely incredible soy-based ice cream, and I'm okay with that.
One of my favorite things is sunshine. That is why I live in Texas in the winter, and Michigan in the summer. I'm very okay with that.
One of my favorite things is my grandmother's fried chicken. She passed away in 2007, and I haven't had fried chicken since. I'm okay with that - she lived to be 100 and I was able to enjoy her fried chicken many times over.
One of my favorite things is the great outdoors. There is nothing like camping in a tent, overlooking the water, no cars, no people - just the crickets, the moon and the stars. I am soooo okay with that.
One of my favorite things is the violin (it's a new favorite thing). I've discovered I love the violin, and the fiddle. I play the piano, not the violin but I'm okay with that.
One of my favorite things is dark chocolate. I LOVE CHOCOLATE with peanut butter, by itself, drenched on a dessert, frozen from the fridge - I'm okay with CHOCOLATE.
If I had a top ten list, this would be at the top: A hot shower. I love hot showers, even when the Texas heat has beat me down, a hot shower revives me. The steam, the drizzle of warmth, the prickly sensation; they overcome me and I dance the water dance as it engulfs me. I love hot showers.
So when the economy brings me down, my stock report looks like a penny poker game, headlines are depressing, and life itself seems overwhelming... I'm okay... because I have my favorite things and I'm okay with that...
I was so noncommittal - purposefully so.I was not up for another relationship.I had given my love non-conditionally many times before and this time I was not going to do it.His soulful eyes beseeched me and all I could do was dive right into the deep blue pools begging me to caress him."Not again," I thought.I WILL NOT GET ATTACHED TO ANOTHER ADOPTED ANIMAL, and so was the case I tried to uphold with Lil' Jerry.
Lil' Jerry is my son's New Zealand rabbit.My dear-one purchased him with the idea that he would earn ONE THOUSAND dollars at a breeders show in eight weeks.When I heard about THE DREAM - I immediately said, "No."I would not care for a rabbit, I would not feed a rabbit, and I didn't want a rabbit!Lil' Jerry moved in last week.
I had already lost myself to a small reptile several years ago.My youngest had received Clyde one Christmas from Santa.Clyde, a small spotted gecko, was not my idea of a warm, fuzzy pet; but my son really wanted him.
SCENE ONE… There was preparation of the aquarium, the purchase of a light, and the discipline of feeding time. I think my sweet; man-child thought this spiny creature would bring him a rather cave-man existence while developing a relationship with this cold-blooded animal.Well, it didn't happen.In fact the whole experience was awful.
My son gleefully fed the little dinosaur small chirping crickets, gave him water, and even helped clean his aquarium.He couldn't wait to teach him tricks, yet he teetered with apprehension and fear that had not been realized until Clyde hauled off and bit his finger.The cave-man retreated with club into his room, and from that point on Mom was chief caretaker for an itty-bitty gecko with slippery, spine-tickling skin, and eyes that almost were larger than his little body. I didn't ask for it, I didn't want it… but I felt responsible since I'm the one that told Santa that my child needed a gecko experience.
SCENE TWO… Clyde made himself at home in my son's room.My son took pleasure in watching him dine on insects, and sun on his small log placed directly beneath his sun lamp. Time passed.I performed the obligatory food, water and aquarium checks.And then… Clyde went on a food strike.He wasn't eating (not even the crickets), he was lethargic, he was not shedding his skin as expected and frankly, he was not his cheerful, reptile-self.I panicked.What if my son woke to find a cold, hard, gecko with his feet in the air?What if he had some weird disease?What kind of psychological damage could occur?I called a pet store and consulted with their reptile director.He suggested Clyde needed extra-virgin-olive oil rubbed on his body… twice a day… yeah, you know where this is going… I spent two weeks taking Clyde out of his aquarium… morning and night, slathering him with extra-virgin-olive oil in hopes that he would shed his skin and become a normal spotted gecko… No one else in my household would touch him; even my husband would walk by and shake his head.I became Clyde's personal masseuse.And I know this is going to sound pretty stupid, but I even became attached to the little sucker - how could I not, when day after day I felt like I may be his only hope for survival, and a successful life as a gecko.It meant something to me.
FINAL SCENE - Despite our morning and evening rituals of oil, Clyde didn't improve.I was desperate… I googled gecko, and fortunately there were topics beside Geico Insurance.I was able to contact a gecko ranch in California and through our correspondence discovered Clyde needed to see a reptile specialist!"Ch-Ching…" was my first thought.The second was… "My husband is going to kill me!"I finally found a nice veterinarian who did specialize in reptiles, and made an appointment.We headed to the doc.Now, I knew I had no money for a reptile visit, at least not the small fortune that I assumed this visit would cost, so… when we came face to face with the good doctor I looked him in the eye and without sounding totally noncompassionate I somberly said, "Doctor, I want to say upfront, I'm limited in how much I can spend on the patient."He looked into my eyes, and he understood.He told us, he would do what he could.They would put Clyde on an intravenous diet (picture a reptile hooked up to an IV) and give us a call on his progress.
We waited two weeks, and unfortunately I had to pull the plug - as the meds didn't work.BOY!DID I FEEL GUILTY! So guilty that I couldn't let Clyde's life be for naught.I wrote a children's story about him.He will always be remembered.
I held Lil' Jerry last night, his heart was racing as my son cleaned his feet with hydrogen peroxide (it's a show thing), and I stroked his body to calm him.The fear subsided, and I wondered if Lil' Jerry will remain apart of our lives or move on.It really is hard to say Good-Bye, isn't it?
To read the story inspired by Clyde, entitled the same, go to www.LauraLilleySmith.com and click on children's stories.
With my birthday month come and gone, I was wistfully thinking about the past year: another year older, what does that mean?I've always thought as I aged, I'd be the woman I had remembered seeing in some television ad in the 70s.She was healthy, and beautiful in her own way (no make-up of course, it WAS the 70s), her crow's feet were laugh lines; her double chin did not exist (perhaps because of her intake of Special K). She was content, happy AND she had a hunky, man ogling her.What more was there to life?
CLEARLY, that woman didn't have two teenagers, a husband (note the hunky, many ogling her), dogs that throw up on her carpet, a cat that sometimes misses the box NOR did she deal with hormonal changes that turned her into Brenda Bad-Ass or Glenda Good Witch.
The woman I imagined doesn't exist. I came to that conclusion early on in my mid-life journey; all it took was discovering the misplacement of hair on my body.Armpit hair had dropped.I mean it… for weeks - I thought this hormone change thing was great, every time I went to shave, I didn't find any hair… until one morning I discovered the hair I had been missing was still there - it's just that my armpit had dropped to mid-breast area!I also thought when Oprah did that show with some high-fashion mid-aged model about facial hair - she needed new content because obviously the fact that the model shaved her chin hair and Oprah plucked hers was a bit too much.I've tried both ways, and I'm still not sure what the best technique is for those pesky hairs. And then there is gray hair… well what can I say, my salon is making a killing.
Mid-life madness is quite a carnival ride.The eyes can be first to go.Can't see your face in the mirror?Oops!Time to get LASIK, but make sure you get plenty of drugs.My friend didn't (because she lied about her weight) and went through the whole procedure totally awake. Not the best experience.
This whole age thing drives me crazy.Up until I turned 40, I truly felt like I was 17.Now, I’m just hoping to age gracefully, and I’m glad to just be here TO AGE.
But even though I’ve turned another year older, I can still turn a head or two… like the other morning when my son and I stopped for gas.He was too busy with PlayStation to pump my gas… so I hopped out and threw the nozzle into the tank, and started to wash my back windshield… a guy pulled up behind me, rolled his window down and said something.I turned around with squeegee in hand and said, “Pardon, me?”He mumbled again.I stepped closer and said, “Sorry, what did you say?”“Do you wanta go have sex?” he said.I LAUGHED so hard, the 30 something male (who I might add, did not resemble a derelict) quickly drove off.
I’ve decided aging gracefully means never taking yourself too seriously.
I was standing in line at the grocery checkout the other day waiting for the lady in front of me to finish stacking her groceries on the moving counter. I found the divider bar absentmindedly, and started removing my groceries from my basket. While placing them on the counter…a short, little, feisty woman ahead of me jolted me back to reality. I had been dreaming of what must have been a spectacular moment when Barack and Michelle arrived at ball number one on inauguration night… courtesy of the proudly displayed People’s magazine issue perched on the stand in front of me. “Ma’am,” she said irritated, “I would NEVER do what you just did to me!” I was aghast – What had I done? What had made her nostril’s flare and the steam come out of one pierced ear? I looked down at her basket and realized she had not finished removing her groceries. I had overstepped or in this case over stacked. I waited. Would God strike me down for this act of terror? Surely Barack and Michelle were shaking their fingers at me from their perch on the magazine stand. A sin, I truly didn’t mean to commit.
I took a breath. REMEMBER THIS STEP. And as I exhaled, I thought, “Okay, this woman is wrapped a bit too tight and I can choose to be catty (my children say I do this well) or I can choose to be nice, even though I really didn’t feel nice. Nice was not exuding through my epidermis nor anywhere else, but I took a breath, and the whole yoga thing took over along with the God moment and I said, “I’m sorry ma’am I didn’t see that your basket wasn’t empty yet.” She rolled her eyes – I removed my groceries and said, “I didn’t mean to upset you.” “You didn’t upset me,” she snapped. “I’m from the NORTH – we don’t get upset.” Whatever that’s supposed to mean… I took another breath… “I have a home in the NORTH too, I know what you mean.” Of course, I really didn’t know what she meant. However, I felt like she needed someone to agree with her.
She finally placed all her groceries on the counter and as she did, she began to tell the checkout clerk about her last three days - days of sorrow and loneliness – her mother had passed away. She had not been out of the house since her death. She shared her feelings of desperation, telling the clerk how difficult it was for her to overcome her loss.
She paid the clerk, turned to me, and said, “I hope you don’t think I was being mean.” “Not at all,” I said.
